Evan is getting very excited to meet his sister. He talks to my belly daily and sings her lullabies. He asked me the other day if she was going to be cute which I found pretty funny. I warned him she would be small and wrinkly at first since most newborns are not very cute!
I am enjoying the one-on-one time with him since soon our lives will be very different. On Friday I spent the whole day just playing on the floor with him and cuddling with him on the couch reading books. He has been extremely affectionate lately and tells me how much he loves me constantly and likes to lay his head on my belly. In turn he wants to be held a lot which at this point in my current physical state is extremely difficult! It's amazing to me that at his age he really seems to understand that his little world is about to change. I am nervous about how the change will affect him but in the long run I know that having a sibling will be a wonderful thing for him.
I have been thinking about what it must have been like for my brother when I arrived. My Mom told me a funny (and scary!) story recently of when I was just a couple of weeks old and I was asleep in another room in a portable crib. My Mom noticed my brother had left the room and went to look for him. She found him in the room I was in, he had taken me out of the crib and was playing with me on the bed! Having a sibling is such a special and unique bond that you share with someone, I miss not having that anymore. Because Evan will be a big brother soon I have been talking to him a lot about Rich and explaining that he was my big brother. This has prompted many questions about where Rich is now. Although we've always talked a lot about him, Evan is at an age now where he can understand a lot more. It is hard to know how much to explain to an almost 3 year old. Every answer prompts more questions and before you know it you are in territory that you were not expecting to be in for years to come. I have tried to veer him away from the focus of what happened to him and where he is and now we just talk about the things he liked to do and the kind of person he was. He now asks me, Aaron, my Dad and Mona frequently "What was Uncle Richard like?". He continues to amaze me daily with comments like this. He is very perceptive and sweet little boy! I feel so fortunate to be his Mom.
Our little peanut is two weeks old today. She is so precious, I think I could just stare at her all day if I had the chance! I was scared at first about having a girl but now I am so excited about establishing a bond with my daughter.
